“Long Day’s Journey Into (My) Night”

My Benzodiazepine Taper

Well, that’s certainly not the most “fun” title of a blog post, is it?

And yet, it is my current reality and a snapshot of what I am going through.

YES, BY CHOICE.

Which, given the state of the world these days, perhaps may seem like an utterly ridiculous thing to do. Like, is my timing really that bad maybe?!!

THE UNIVERSE: “What are you talking about? Coming off of a medication that is purposely designed to help ease anxiety in what are, ostensibly, extremely anxious times?”

ME: “Umm, yes? Is this a mistake? Am I fucking up?”

THE UNIVERSE: “That remains to be seen.”

To quote David Byrne: “Well, how did I get here?”

That’s a very good question, Mr. Byrne, and one I am trying to answer.

Short answer is: “I allowed it to happen.” Or, “I trusted my doctor.”

Long answer is: this post/personal essay which I am hoping will help provide me some answers, if nothing else. I think, quite honestly, I fell into a trap.