Live Through This

The 30th anniversary of Nirvana’s “Nevermind” was September 24th which was soon followed by Hole’s “Live Through This” and as Courtney Love (of Hole) once said when asked about her husband Kurt Cobain’s suicide (of Nirvana) “I’m not psychic but maybe my lyrics are” the title of “Live Through This” keeps going through my head and heart as I struggle in my own way to “Live Through This” — “this” being this particular moment in time that we all find ourselves in — re: the seemingly never ending pandemic which continues to upend everything in our day to day lives — it’s A LOT to take in and process.

I often find myself, in conversations with others saying this: “You know, before, pre -pandemic” and I realize in that moment, that I am in fact, “living through this” — or perhaps even more poignantly, when I’m watching a movie or a tv show and suddenly realizing about half way through: “No one is wearing a mask or social distancing” — its a sad epiphany to have because, for me, at least, it gives a very real feeling of displacement and disorientation as well, because even though entertainment serves as a potent distraction, it’s also a double edged sword in a way, because it precisely mirrors what we’ve lost, too.

Almost as if — there are co-existing parallel worlds and I just happen to be rather inconveniently trapped in this one. I wonder if anyone else feels this way, too? It all feels very surreal, in a way, the Salvador Dali iconic image of the melting wristband is now not just contained within the framework of a painting but is actually here now, in…