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“It Seemed Like a Good Idea at the Time — Until it Wasn’t”
I wasn’t sure if I was going to write about this or not but — it’s been bothering me and after careful consideration, I realized that if I process this through writing that perhaps (maybe) it will help me feel better.
That is the hope, at least, anyway.
So, I had an idea that seemed good in theory and then later proved to be rather the opposite. And that’s okay, because really, how will you know until you try? But, here’s the thing: afterwards, I didn’t feel very good.
Did I expect to feel good afterwards? Yes, I suppose I did. Why would I do something that I thought might possibly make me feel bad later then?
It went something like this: I reached out to someone that I had dated a few years ago, prior to the pandemic. This person was (for the most part) very good to me. He treated me wonderfully and had a very gallant manner, in a wonderfully old-fashioned way of “courting me” which was very appealing.
I have wondered about him these past few years as I have wondered about other people that I have known, loved and cared about — in that sense of: “Hey, how are you? How is your life? Did you manage to avoid Le Plague (Covid)?” Just because relationships don’t always work out, it also doesn’t mean that those associated feelings just automatically…
